Pilgrim Soldier

Last night we had an amazing house group where all the plans went out of the window and instead we did what God wanted. The 6 of us who were there spent time praying for each other and the presence of the Holy Spirit was very evident. For me personally, this was a very important time and I’m going to be working through what the Lord said to me for sometime.

In many ways this is where I am at the moment. It’s clear to me that I’m walking a path towards something that God has not yet revealed in its entirety. My problem is that I’m often distracted from that path and consequently fall back instead of move forward. I know for a fact that the obstacles I need to cross are not going to be easy and they’ll probably be painful at times to, but I have to get there! The Lord is calling me to a deeper intimacy with him and I’ve got to get there!

As I write this I’m reminded of 2 things. Firstly, (and annoyingly for me as I have always felt unsure about quoting songs) I’m recalling the words of a chorus I’ve sung many times over the years:

I want to be a soldier of the cross,
Brave-hearted and true;
I want to be a soldier of the cross.
I do, I do, I do, I do.
I want to be a soldier of the cross,
Telling out the story,
Walking with Jesus
All the way to Glory.

Secondly, on Good Friday during our service I got a real image of Jesus on the cross shouting out, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” At that moment our sins were piled onto Jesus and I really don’t want to do that anymore.