Pilgrim Soldier

Zoe & I are fast approaching a crossroads in our life. Whilst we still have over 16 months left on our 2nd 3 year contract with The Salvation Army we are reaching the stage where a decision about our future has to be made. At the moment I hate having this hanging over me all the time but, at least for now, hang it must!

The options we have are wide and varied, from staying on for another full 3 year contract through to returning back to the UK and returning to our pre-Latvia life. For coming out here God spoke very clearly to us, and it was clear two years ago that we should stay on here. This time however things are different. God has not spoken clearly to us as a couple about where our future lies and unlike before we have a child to take into account.

It’s difficult not to know the next stage and I am desperately trying to avoid the trap of concentrating solely on the future instead of the here-and-now. I know that God knows the plans He has for us and that He will reveal them in His time, but it’s still very frustrating.

At the same time I know I’m on a voyage of discovery in my faith at the moment. I have so many thoughts whirling around in my head that its sometimes difficult to pin them down long enough to work them through. Thoughts about my own walk and how I express it, about The Salvation Army and its calling, and thoughts about how ‘church’ should be done in general!

Everything I do at the moment seems to be about searching that I’m beginning to wonder if I can’t see what’s right in front of me!

So if my blogging makes no sense at times I’m not really surprised.