Pilgrim Soldier

For a while now I’ve really been struggling during worship! I can’t put my finger on the exact reason why although part of it is the fact whilst I am confident singing and worshipping in Latvian, its still not my native language! However this morning I turned a corner.

As I stood worshipping this morning I suddenly felt as if I was transported out of the meeting and into the centre of a maelstrom! All around me, at dizzying speed, spun a vast greyness with just hints of things appearing for a moment before being swept away agai. Although difficult to make out I just knew they were sins, both my own and the worlds.

But there in the centre it was still! There in the centre was the presence of God. It was as if I’d stepped out of the rush of daily life and just for a moment was simply there, in His presence. No words were needed between us. I didn’t even need to see Him! He was just there like He always is but I so often forget.

It’s as if God took me away for just a moment to remind me that however bad things get, however difficult life seems to be He is there at the centre of everything, the calm in the midst of the storm!

So I’ve turned a corner and today my worship seemed to be refreshed and more urgent than it has for months!